Sunday, August 21, 2011

Oh my dear muses...


I think I have lost my muse for the last couple of days. There are so many things I would like to share but at the same time I don’t know how to write it or how to remove the depressing tone from my words.

Dear Calypso, bring your tunes and give me inspiration
Image from evike

I have tried to evoke Clio, Erato or Calypso to take my hands and use them to put down into words my mood and make me feel better... but nothing. So I had to force myself to express what’s on my head, draining some stress and getting calmed.

So, my dear blog, you might ask me, why am I so depressed? Why the blue mood dragging me into the limbo?

So many things, for starters as days goes by the situation in Venezuela is getting worse and being honest, I can’t see the tipping point where people will say “I can’t stand it anymore, this has to change”. My family (as certainly any others in Venezuela) is having serious economical issues thanks to the wrong policies and schemes the government has taken for the last 12 years, plus the water supply, electrical power, roads and health systems has become a mere joke... a bad and tasteless joke which keeps me worried.

On the other hand I am not getting many distractions at work; I do not like the code or the design I am producing, but I have to concentrate to deliver stuff and to be easy going, but my head and my heart are telling me to do something different, to act, to change the situation... but how?

Probably I am just in my blue era, just like Van Gogh, with the big difference  that I am not a genius, neither a great artist, nor an alcoholic, nor Dutch... definitely not going to cut my ear and not going to kill myself... and this blue phase eventually will go.

Van Gogh - Almond Tree

So... What to do? What to do?

In the meanwhile I keep taking pictures (which aren’t good either), studying new technologies (well... not really studying... more reading than anything else...), browsing for hours the Internet trying to find good deals and trying not to forget to watch the stars at the end of the days.

Van Gogh - Starry night

Do I have any news for you?

Well... I got officially older on July and so did my mom (kind of sad to sing the happy birthday on the phone because the freaking Venezuelan’s Internet is shit and I could not video call my mom)... I finished one book I have been reading for at least 6 months now... On September 9th it will be two years since I arrived to Australia.
Broken communications... that's our experience with Venezuelans failing systems.
Image from corbisimages.com
And I have rewritten four times three posts of which I have published none... and I still don’t like‘em.

Anyway, I am going to go back to editing those posts. 
Hope to get it ready anytime soon.

5 Comments:

David Tchepak said...

Sorry you're having a rough run mate. Maybe you need to take a week or so off from pair programming with me? ;)

For the work-related stuff, maybe we should all try some lunch time coding-for-fun projects, or watching some coding screencasts to help get us all back into the creative mode?

Gaby said...

Hey honey... definitely we have Mercury retrograde... jajajajaja.
Now, seriously, I think the world is passing through a tough time, with a lot of changes (like you say, the blue phase), but it'll pass (I hope really soon)...

So keep on holding on, and wait for the change, while being part of that change.

Rey said...

Hey Rod, sorry to read that you are blue. I hope you get better any time soon.

Greetings from my mom, Barbara and me.

Rod said...

@david, I haven't pair with you for at least one week... So, that is not :P It will come of good use some creativity stimulation.

@Gaby, I really hope to go away... Soon.

@Rey, Thanks mate.

Nos Vamoz said...

Hello Rod! I can't imagine how you fell knowing the situation here in Venezuela when your family is still here.

Really the situation on the country is getting worse each day, and I lost hope that see any change in Venezuela! We are in the worst situation ever! and Chavez still has about 50% of popularity! Is a crazy thing, isn't it??

Well, I hope the "blue season" ended and today you are better! :)

Best regards,

@TavotoOz

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